ABC's of 2008

A: Art. This year I have been into my art,more then ever. A majority of the year, that's all I did, I lived, breathed, and sold it. :) I have explored a few different types of art, not just my main art form. I think that being at CAHS, has opened me up more artistically.

B: Babysitting, I have spent a majority of the year babysitting. I must have the word "babysitter" or "pushover" written on my forehead because it seems that my brother is constantly asking me to babysit. I always say yes, because well, he's my brother. Also for a period of time, I was babysitting Tasia's son, Ayden, almost everyday for a few months. I love these kids, but I also love my teen years, and my freedom to do what I want. But it was worth it to spend time with them.

C: Cigarettes. I am quitting now, but this whole year, I have smoked more then ever. The first few years I smoked I could make a pack last me almost a week, sometimes more. This year, more recently, I have been smoking basically a pack a day. I know it's horrible for me, but it's pretty much my release, it calms my nerves. It's a serious addiction. I never really thought of myself as addicted, until now, now that I'm quitting it's so hard for me. I think I can do it though, I know I can. Quitting smoking I think is going to be my new years resolution. I just don't know how to do it. If I should quit cold turkey or just try to cut down until eventually I'm not smoking at all.

D: Drama. This school year has been full of drama, it seems to me like none of my other years in high school have been this bad when it comes to drama. It seems like everyone loves to talk about me. Sadly enough though, I think I'm getting used to it. Rumors about me are flying everywhere about me. People will say the most absurd thinks about me, that aren't even close to true. At first I would get upset about it, but now it's pretty much an everyday thing, it's normal. I just have to remind myself that I know what is true and what isn't, they don't. It will all be over soon.

E: Edward. That's my dad's name. Me and him have never been close, as hard as it is to say, he has never been there for me. This summer I thought I would give living with him a try, since I had been kicked out of my mom's house, and I wanted to have at least one parent of mine there for me. But after about a month, me and him really got into it, he was always drunk, and he is a violent drunk. I couldn't take it. One day me and him got into a really bad fight, he ended up hurting me. So I left. I haven't talked to him since June. Knowing I don't have him in my life is hard, it has effected me a lot. That was a major part of my year. :(

F: Friends. This year I have made and lost a lot of friends, but from what I hear that's normal during teenage years. As much as that may be true, it still sucks. I have a few friends that I'm still close with, and have known since I was younger, friends that I grew up with. I also have a few new friends, that I am becoming a lot closer with. I am so thankful for my friends, the ones that have been there for me when I was down, they have helped me through so much.

G: Graduation. I am supposed to be graduating from school after this quarter, but I will still have one more credit to earn, so I will have to come back next quarter for 2 hours a day, which isn't bad at all. Plus I will be taking an online class at school, which wont be too bad. I still don't see why i can't take it from home, personally, I think I work better when I am at home, and in a comfortable setting.

H: Happiness. 2008 has been a pretty happy year, I have been pretty happy with it. I will admit that there have been some ups and some downs, I am pleased to say that I have remained fairly happy through out the entire year.

I: Immaturity, Ignorance and Avoidance (which can be ignorant on occasion). I have encountered quite a bit of this in 2008, people don't think about things through, they avoid thinking logically, they think about only themselves. A few people avoid doing what is right and do the ignorant thing. I will admit that I do it too from time to time, but I always think things through all the way ans try to gauge how they will affect my future, but that's not saying I always listen to that and do the right thing. But I was talking more about other people that I know, not so much myself.

J: Jordy! Jordy one of the true friends I have, although he is a friend thief (just kidding) I love him to death. He has always helped me out when I needed it, he has been one friend that has stuck with me since the day that we met. I am hoping that we are soon to be college buddies, and I refuse to lose contact with him after school is done. Thanks Jordy. :)

K: Karma. i am a strong believer in karma. "What goes around comes around." This year I think that I have encountered my dose of karma, and a few people around me have too.

L: Love. Where do I begin love has been a enormously huge (I know that is redundant but I was just trying to make a point) part of my 2008. Love as in family/friend love, love as in relationship love. I think that I am a very loving person, but it takes a lot for me to "love" someone. I am not trusting what so ever. it takes A LOT for me to trust someone. I am a closed book, well I try to be, doesn't always work. But love, in my opinion , is a great yet painful and horrible thing. I t really depends on the situation and the person and their feelings as well.

M: Moving. We moved twice in 2008, to an apartment in Sun Ray, then to an apartment in Highland. I am happy at the apartment that I live in now, I am happy we made the move, but moving is horribly tiring, and terribly exhausting, having to pack ALL of your belongings, having to move it, haul it all around, and then unpacking and settling into the new place.

N: No good. If you couldn't tell my my other blogs and other things in this alphabet, there have been quite a few not so good events that have happened this year for me. I'm not really going to go into more detail because that would be just plain old redundant. :)

O: Operation. I had my tonsils taken out in April this year, it wasn't anything major, but I couldn't think of anything else for O. Most people that get their tonsils out get them out when they are younger, and they are smaller so its less painful, but no, I had my taken out at 16. It hurt so incredibly bad, I couldn't talk or eat solid food for a week at least. It was horrible.

P: Pool. Every Wednesday, we play pool over at Al's billiards on Larpentuer, me and about 20 or so friends meet up there every week. It's kind of a new thing, but it's pretty cool. Its a nice thing to do with friends, and a chance and place to get to see them and just hang out. Its a way for us to all keep in touch, and have a good time. It's also a good time for me to improve my pool skills, because I completely FAIL at playing pool.

Q: Questions. I am full of questions, I question everything, I need facts, I need to know what's what. I wasn't like this until this year I would say, before I didn't care, I was to shy to ask questions, I wasn't forward with people at all, but I have definitely learned my lesson with that. I ask plenty of questions now, I make sure I know whats right and I make sure I know what I'm doing. No time for mistakes.

R: Rest. Or should I say lack of rest. This year has been so busy I haven't found much time to sleep. I feel like I have been up for a constant 365 days. A nap is well over due for me.

S: School. I started at CAHS at the beginning of 2008 and I love it. I think that it has let me sort of come out of my shell. I have made a lot of new friends here and had a lot of cool and eventful new things happen since I have started going here. I have expanded my art, learned a lot. CAHS has also helped me get on track for an early graduation, I didn't think that I was even going to graduate on time, let alone early! :)

T: Timing. Timing was everything this year. Weather it be my bad timing, or lack of time to do hings. This year felt rather rushed and it also went by really fast, which was a good thing.

U: Unique. This year I have tried to find myself, finding that I'm unique. Not like anyone else. I am my own person. I have tried to venture away from the "norm." and be myself. I know I am nothing like anyone else. I don' want to be another stereotype, I don't want to blend in with the rest.

V: Vacation. Oh how I need one! :)

W: Winter. Although winter has just begun, I am already sick of it, unfortunately we still have about 3 or so months left of this madness. I love and hate winter. I love the gorgeous white snow, but I hate the freezing bitter cold. Winter so far this year has come with a serious BANG! I wasn't prepared at all for it. I'm still not prepared for it, and I am ready for it to be over already!

X: I cant think of any words that begin with the letter X, except for xylophone and that relates to absolutely nothing that happened in 2008 for me.

Y: Yes. This year I think that I have been saying yes to too many people. I think that I was/am too nice, it's in my nature, what can I say. I don't like to be rude, but sometimes people take advantage of that. That's no good. I am nice because I want to be, if someone needs help or needs some money, or something, anything, I'm there for them. But when they take advantage and constantly ask, or never return the favor or pay me back, that's really pushing it. I don't like to be walked all over and used.

Z: Zebras. This year I have acquired a very strong liking for zebras. Zebra patterns. Zebras in general as an animal. I love the black and white, the unique stripes. I don't know what else to say about them.