Well thats my guy rant for now..... it's not related to anything, I know.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
D! (my guy rant)..... (read if you want)
Teenage years have to be the hardest, so many emotions, pressures, friends that come and go and relationships that come and go as well. I will admit that I don't have the best of luck with guys. But there is one guy that I would give my left arm for (I take a lot of pride in my left arm, I'm left handed.) We met at the beginning of last year and had a instant connection to each other, I guess you could say. We dated for a little while, but then realized that it wasn't working out for the best, that we would be better off as friends. By that time though it was summer, and we had mutual friends that we both spent the majority of our time with, so we saw each other pretty often. Also by that time there was some unexpected news that also kept us together and close. Everyone always told and still tells me that he is bad news and that I should stay away, deep down I think that I know it, but I just can't seem to do it. He's my first love and we have had a lot that we've been through. We have never gotten back together, and I often wish that we were, I know that he is different then what everyone thinks about him, people are to quick to judge. He isn't the ideal guy that most people hope for, but he is to me at least. Sure he has things wrong with him... quite a few things at that, but it makes him who he is, and he is different then that. He is really the only guy I have ever felt this way about, I have been in relationships before and after I was with him and it's just not the same. I'm not close minded though, well maybe a little bit. He is my best guy friend, and he always will be. Im happy to have him in my life, even as just a friend. I respect him, and trust him, even when nobody else does. I hope he realizes that..... doubt it.
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4 comments:
serina i like it a lot
i think that its very thoughtfull
thanks ya for writing this
-garfield
Welcome to the realm of teen angst! Kidding, bad relationship skills are a part of being a teenager. We all get to suck at relationships together now, so that when it really matters,i.e. later in life, we won't fuck things up as badly. I'm glad you guys have managed to stay friends, and he's really not all that bad. Though I doubt he realizes how much he still means to you, men suck at things like that. I'm going to go get some sleep. Hugs.
Oh boo boo! I know who your talking about! I understand what your saying completely! Whenever you need someone to talk to let me know, I feel you on this subject because guys are meanies! Ha ha, I liked this a lot though. =]
Have you shared such thoughts with him? Your eloquence matches your emotions. I think that the perfection of loving someone is seeing through their perceived imperfections and knowing their core-- and still caring for them. That you felt this for this individual I think speaks to your capacity to love fully and openly. While I surely can't say if your journey with this person will proceed with you two as a couple, you have learned from him, about yourself and also set the standard for other great loves in your life.
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